This blog started 10+ years ago and has been on pause for about 5 years. It started while I was working through some past wounds and all of the entries were from the countless journals I filled and I have yet to dent the surface of all that had been written. Like most things with me, I start and stop a lot, and I have been in the “stopped” phase with the blog for many years. Then randomly on two separate instances within a few months of each other my blog was brought up. It was second hand information from people who had friends or family that used to read it and was referenced to the posts I did almost 10 years ago. Thankfully, the references were very encouraging, in fact, one of them said it helped keep him alive when he was going through a really dark time. This got me thinking and helped me realize that when I’m actively writing I am the happiest, most fully alive and fulfilled. Why it took me so long to embrace this truth I’ll never know but I guess sometimes you have to figure out what doesn’t work before you can commit to what does.
As I look back over the last several years, there has certainly been quite a bit of time wandering in the spiritual and emotional wilderness; however, I embraced my excuses and let them decide my life for me. As I embraced them, days turned into weeks, weeks into months, and months into years, and here we are. After all of this sputtering, I finally started to gain traction but could only muster thoughts and ideas that were a mile wide and an inch deep. It wasn’t until I came to the end of myself and continued to press into the Holy Spirit that breakthrough came. I heard the Lord say, “You need to write, what you need to hear.” Then the unthawing of my heart allowed it be free and whatever pressure I was putting on myself became manageable. He put people in my life that awakened things in me that had been locked away. This is key. Don’t go life alone. While there is great value in solitude, there is also time for community. For I know that our restoration and awakening will always be shorter and richer with people who are truly vested in our personal and spiritual lives.
Understanding life and God’s best for our lives is a life long journey meant for people around us and Jesus within us. When we realize that all of our journeys are joined together by the God who created each of us we start to see things differently. In today’s lonely society filled with Twitter, Facebook and Instagram, a lot of us have lost what it looks like to truly live alongside one another. My prayer is that this space will move you to be a better mother, father, daughter, son, wife, husband, friend and disciple of Jesus. Let me be clear, I don’t have all or even that many answers but what I write is what I need to hear. Let’s press into Him and see where we can go together, grabbing hold of who He has called us to be. This world needs you fully alive and your heart ablaze for Him.